The Edge

Thoughts from the edge of your reality. We always bring food for your table of knowledge.

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

This one says Irish Sping on it

Folks, I am shocked. I am really completely shocked. I was looking around for website awards programs and ran accross World Wide Web Awards. So I fiugured what the hell. Lets see what I can do. and these are the rules on why soemone cant get an award. >1.We do not accept sites that are offensive to others. >2.We do not accept sites that contain profanity, hatred, propaganda, racism, warez, nudity, gambling, hacking activities, use of tobacco products, >drugs, violence, firearms, weapons, degradation, harm, slander, cult activity, pet pages, personal home pages, vampirism, witch craft, gang related >activity, role-playing (fantasy). We prefer not to review these types of sites. WTF?! Not offensive to others? So if you put up a Teletubies site and I dont like it I can have you banned? How do you make a site that EVERYONE will agree with? People there are a lot of wackos out there. there are people who are offended by names, colors, sounds, and location. I got dissed by a woman because a guy that cheated on her had the same name as me. Now with wack jobs like that around how can you not offend somebody? And number two. Wait. Put your seatbelt on. Cause Im about to hit the gears. Get some coffe or a beer cause Im takin' you with me. How can you say no profanity? Some of the best laughs I have had involved profanity. And Im an adult. Some of you are adults. If you choose to use profanity thats between you and your Cerebelum. I could care less. If you took the time to create a site and maintain it then you should get to say whatever you want to say. Hell you paid for the damn space. And dont give me non of that "But children may see" crap. Yes, yes they might. But heres the real deal fellow howler monkeys. Its your kid. If you have not taken the time to discuss things with them and teach them your values thats your problem. Not mine or someone elses. You dont want them on the net and possibley exposed to something? Unplug the damn machine and take the cord. But dont tell me or anyone else we have to monitor ourselves because you forgot how to use a condom or take a pill. Not my problem thats yours. No tabacco products? Does that mean if I have something in my journal and it mentions smoking they are going to deny me? I use a banner system on my domain. What if some tobacco company does the unspeakable and slips in? Now this will probably never happen as it is still illegal for tobacco manufacturers to advertise on websites. No weapons, violence or drugs? I dont do drugs but I had a good story about someone doing them. So Im out? WTF? Even if mine is a positive story about why you should not do your drugs in public? No weapons? I take martial arts. I have pictures of my weapon on my domain. So Im out because I have a healthy spiritual persuit? There are 18 weapons and forms as STANDARD for the Shaolin fighting style. Thats 18 weapons folks. So if I talk about doing a Wu Bu Chan form with a sword Im gone? I dare ya to get close and say that. No slander? Come on. Some people need to be slandered. You need to know when some scumbag is running around doing something unsavory. And if they lose hits or buisiness from it? Well tjhats what makes the will of the people so great. Singulary we are just one lone howler monkey going off in the wild cyber jungle. But get enough of us together and now you got a pack of roving gorillas. Its howPlanet of the Apes started. No pet pages? No personal pages? What the fuck is your domain/journal if its not a personal page? No vampirism? Why not? With the popularity of Blade and Anne Rice this has become one of the largest sub-cultures in America and Europe. Just because you dont want to look at them doesnt mean that they are going to go away. And dont think just because you deny thier webpages your kids wont see them. They are here. They are in your schools taking classes. they are on reality tv shows. Personally I think most of them are kinda funny. I mean really. Most of the guys I can see why they did it. They're geeks and and they needed to find somewhere they fit in. Take away the black eyeliner, the styling gel, and the dark clothes and you got one geeky guy with a suitcase full of mental and social issues. Now the girls. The girls are usually just hot, and they often wear something tight and sexy. Yeah, yeah. Im biased. I like women. No witchcraft? What so we are banning religions again? afraid thay are going to steal someones pure Christian soul? They wont. Thats someone elses job. Besides, alot of Christains are more underhanded than Old Scratch himself. Seriously. I have heard of some "God fearing" people doing crap that even the devil is saying, "I think you went over the top there". Look up religious crime if you think not. I mean really, you gonna ban the pagans but no one else? Well damn. Aint that a bitch. I would take a pagan over a Catholic anyday. Atleast I know the pagan isnt going to plug my kid in the ass. They might bathe the brat in goats blood, but thier virginity is safe. And last but not least, No roleplaying? This begs the question. WHY? Rolepayers are harmless. Most of them are smelly loners that have no place to be except with other smelly loners. Give them some peace in thier life. And nevermind the fact that atleast 60% of the US has played or is playing Dungeones and Dragons. Its a past-time. Nothing more. Give it a rest will ya?

Friday, November 26, 2004

HAhAHAHA BOOM

Yeah, yeah. Im busy. Very. But you look hungry. So eat this Boom! so remember kiddies. only buy accessories at an authorized dealer.

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

@!##$%^&(*)(_)_ Spamers!

Well somebody finally got one. Someone caught a spammer and he is going to prison! And thats ok. Thats really cool. But I want something more. I mean something painfull. But I want something special. I know... Lets get the last 1 million emails he sent and print them. Then we make him eat them. ALL of them. I mean really nine years fighting off big horny men who want to poke him in the ass is cool. And I dont only blame him. I blame every howler monkey out ther that ordered something from this guy. If he wasnt making 400,000 a year he wouldnt be doing it. Its time to stop the madness people. And I say we start with him. String him up and wack his testicles like they were pinyatas, make him hand write apologies to everyone he ever emailed. something.

Sunday, November 14, 2004

Predator Talk

I finally got it! I talked to 'The Predator', from Alien VS Predator. Although I wish I could have got more, I was able to get this interview with him. 1.How did you prepare for the role of the famed predator? The first thing that I did when I found out that I had been cast in the role was to remind myself of the earlier films. Obviously Kevin Peter Hall was the only other man in history to ever play the role and it would have been foolish of me to ignore his performance. Developing a performance style that I could carry through the entire film was not as hard as I thought. I went through the original films frame by frame trying to extrapolate little nuances of Kevin Peter Hall’s performance that I could utilize and develop into characteristics and personality traits for my own performance of the predator characters. When you consider that the predator does not speak and has no face (for much of the film at least) then you get an idea of how important body language is to the character. The predator is not a robot, he has emotions and a personality and every little hand gesture or head movement can be used to convey those emotions. By far the toughest and lengthy part of my preparation was making sure that I was fit enough to carry the performance through a very arduous six month shooting schedule. After visiting the ADI studios in California for the preliminary fitting I knew that this role was going to need another level of fitness both physical and mental. I put myself through a punishing fitness regime prior to the start of filming to get used to carrying an extra 40 or 50 kilos around everyday. Even during filming, at least up until the Christmas hiatus I was training regularly to maintain my fitness as well as spending all day on set. 2.Have you ever watched any of the predator movies? Yes, I have always been a fan of the predator. The idea of an alien race visiting planet Earth and being fought off by heroic figures is as old as the hills, but the concept of this intergalactic tribal hunter with a perceived code of honour and very well developed combat ideal was quite ground breaking and it really captured the imagination when it was released. Not to mention the awesome Stan Winston design; it had to scare Arnold Schwarzenegger for goodness sake!! Even predator 2 was not as bad as people make it out to be. The predator was still awesome. 3.How long did the make up effects take themselves? On the first day of principle photography the costuming took about four hours, but by the end of the first week the team had it down to about ninety minutes. There were several stages of the costume. The first stage was a point where I could sit off set in relative comfort waiting for the call to action. The next stage was everything except the head and the last stage was of course the head. The face plate was the very last piece to go on. It had to come off after almost every take because the visor steamed up rendering me blind most of the time, but as soon as it went on I was fully in character – I was the predator! It was a little different when I was performing scenes with the face plate off, because I had to have my contact lenses put in and my eyes blacked out. The mechanized head was cinched very tightly around my own to ensure that no natural skin colour could be seen around my eyes. At first I found the mechanized head very difficult to perform in, but like everything else about this role that was uncomfortable or painful, I came to terms with it very quickly. It was a mental battle more than anything, at the front of my mind every day was the single motivating thought that I was playing one of the most iconic science fiction characters ever imagined, there was no way that I was going to let a little pain or discomfort effect my performance. 4.Do you have a favourite scene and if so what is it? There were so many scenes that were so much fun to shoot it is very hard to pick one that stands out from the rest. The beginning of the fight chamber scene when I got to beat up almost the entire leading cast, strangle Raoul Bova and stab Colin Salmon was certainly one of my favourites. The Lance Henriksen death scene was also a favourite, (that was my first scene ever and they set me on fire as well). The scene when an alien creeps out of the masonry and breaths down my neck before I slice off its face was also a lot of fun and was one of the few scenes when Tom Woodruff and I actually appear together. Generally, for someone like me who had never done anything like this before the film was a hoot from beginning to end. 5.Did you keep anything from the role as a memento? I was not allowed to keep any memorabilia or souvenirs from the film. I have a preview poster and several photographs to go along with my fond memories. 6.Was the suit difficult to move in? What about ventilation? The costume was very hot and heavy, but making it look as though it was not a man in a hot and heavy rubber suit was exactly what was required of me for the performance. I am still not sure if I have achieved that or done it justice. The suit was not ventilated at all other than when I removed the head. Provision was made for the call of nature, but again it was a mental battle; I couldn’t go so I didn’t want to. The suit was not that difficult to move in. It had to be flexible enough to allow me to give a full performance. If it was restrictive in any way then it would have had to be redesigned. 7.Did you have any motivation for the role itself or did you just go in and stand where instructed? There was a certain amount of doing whatever I was told, as long as I was in the right place and lit properly the performance was basically up to me. If Paul Anderson didn’t like anything that I did he would say so and I would do it differently. I found inspiration in the unlikeliest of places and I was greatly motivated by the epic saga of Beowulf. It may sound an odd source in which to find motivation, but I viewed the lead character predator as a noble warrior skilled in the art of combat and possessing of a strict code of honour. Beowulf is the epic tale of victory against the insurmountable foe and it appeared to provide a perfect parallel. I was also motivated by the fact that this was not an original role and there had already been two magnificent performances of the character by Kevin Peter Hall. I was very aware that I not only had to deliver a performance worthy of the movie, but I also had to deliver a performance worthy of Kevin Peter Hall. He was a talented and well respected character actor and the predator was probably his crowning glory. Performing the same role in my first performance; I felt a great deal of pressure to live up to the bench mark that he created. There you have it folks. Ian Whyte; The Predator. Great guy and we all thank him for his work and allowing me this interview Ian is a client of Coolwaters Productions

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Damn dream

I keep having this stupid dream. and its pissing me off. It always starts the same. I am going to meet a friend somewhere. Each time I have the dream who I am meeting changes. Anyway. I either get on a bus or stop at a sidewalk cafe and sit down. A beautiful woman sits close by and pulls out a cell phone. I am reading my book and do not wish to be bothered with anyone. The woman is arguing with someone on her phone. I try to ignore it and coninue reading. After a few moments she puts her phone away and just sits there. I can feel her eyes boring into my cheek. I try to avoid looking at her but eventually I look up. She smiles. I do not. I am determined not to get sucked into it again. I start back to reading my book. My internal sensor tells me that things are not kosher here. I look up again. She has moved a seat closer to me. 'NO' I scream mentally and go back to my book. I am not actually reading it now, so much as I am trying to focus my attention away from her. Suddenly I notice the light has changed. I look up from the pages and she is sitting very near me. She is truly beautiful. My heart pounds in my chest, and inside I can hear the voice screaming. 'No, no no. Dont do this again. You know what happens' This time when I look at her she speaks. I try to make small talk and say little. She tells me her name and all about her life. As much as I try to keep her distant her life and words move me. She asks about me and I find myself spilling the seeds of my life to her. We talk and we laugh, all the time I am hating myself for not pushing her away. I want to touch her. I can smell the clover in her hair. Her skin smells of fresh soap and bath oils, and I truly want to take hold of her and give her everything I have. But still I hear that screaminng voice in my head, 'dont do it. You know she will just leave like the others' Sometimes we kiss in between talks and hold hands. Nothing more. After what seems like minutes, but is actually days, she begins to look sad. I ask what is wrong. she looks down as if embarrased to speak. Calmly I cox her to speak. "Why dont you love me?" I always start to respond. I never really know what I am going to say. I know I am not going to tell her how I feel, that much is for sure. Its a bad idea to day say I feel. I dont know why, but it is. We hold hands as I try to think of something. I stare at the top of her head and listen to my heart pound in my temples. Just as I am about to speak... I wake up. Always. Sucks dont it.

Friday, November 05, 2004

WTF?!

Tonight I talked to the stupidest person alive. No really. Just wait. You will see. I was on the phone talking to my sister; Yolanda tonight. We were doing our usual. Chewing the fat about nonsense and generally, being silly. I got a familiar beep on the phone and figured, its another salesman. I answered it prepared to jump this one like the last one. I answer the phone with a simple and cold "Hello". No one answered. Again I said "Hello?" this time with inquisition in my voice. The response floored me. "Whatup Nigga. Wheres yo wife at"? I started laughing. Obviously someone mis-dialed thier phone. smiling I responded,"thats a good question. Why dont you tell me who you are and I might tell you" "You know who this is nigga. Dont be tryin to act and shit" "Nooo, I think you got a wrong number" "Aint no wrong number, motherfucka. You know that. Na, where yo wife at"? Normally I am calm. I am peaceful. But certain things I dont like. First one above all, I hate being called nigga. In Alabama someone threw rocks at my sister and me while they shouted nigga go home. I have met people from Mexico who come here looking for a better life illegally, and they called me nigga. Or as they put it, "Pinche Miyate". Second, I live alone, so wives are a touchy subject for me. So needless to say, this guy had hit the buttons. And stood on them. "Listen you fuck. What the hell do you want? Who in the hell are you calling anyway? Do you even know?" "Fuck you nigga. I know who I am. And I know yo ass. Ahm, you hoes man" "What the fuck?! Who the fuck are you trying to call fuckhead? Cause you got the wrong number!" "Fuck you nigga. Ahm fuckin' yo wife. And you know it aint no wrong number motherfucka". "Really? Fuck you dumbass" "Fuck you nigga. You know I got yo woman" At that point I hung up. Now several things occur to me. 1. Why call someone and say that? even if you are doing some guys wife.... SHUT THE FUCK UP! If you and she are doing it on the side then someone wanted to keep it secret. 2. What if I was the right guy and I was violent? She comes home, smelling like him and BANG... dead bitch. Now you got some really pissed guy looking for you. Or worse yet. What if he is like me? "You doing her are you? Fine. then you keep her. Im done" Now you got a house guest because you didnt keep your trap closed. And heaven help you if you say something like. "I cant have you living with me", and put her out. Now I problably will come kill your ass. You wanted her bad enough before. Now you keep her or else. 3. Why do you need the drama? What the fuck? You dont have enough heart achge with the economy, and crime? You have to make something, so you have something to worry about now? Again I ask, "WTF" It only goes to show, some people never evolve beyond the fecal matter throwing monkey stage

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

The Edge

I tell ya. God must have a sense of humor. Come one really. Again some ninny jumps into a lions den and decides to pick a fight. It wasnt bad enought that back in January of 2004 some poor schlub decided to do it but again tonight someone does it. And for the exact same reason. He heard a voice telling him to go convert the lions. What a maroon. You cant convert lions. Everybody knows that they are too proud. Lions would never ever admit you had a better idea than them. All of this leads me to two conclusions. Either 1. The lions are ventriliquist and ther are tricking gullable people, OR 2. God needs entertainment too

A serious moment

It seems that most are least a few out there have these big dramatic and powerful things to say. I do not. I am not politically motivated or moved. Infact, I hate politicians and lawyers. Why? Nothing of consequence to you.I have looked and noticed many jumping into the political arena to spout off some retoric or jargon. Many shout and squeal about lies and scandals. Some feel justified in thier position and want to make you apart of thier group. Others jeer and taught if you do not share thier views. All shout and wail about who will make your life better. The two main camps battled and name called until the bitter end. Its over now friends. But I digress from what I intended to say. After reading so many journals I see men who write of thier sexual conquests and thier angst for the one they truly love. I see women writing of thier loves and lovers and the feelings they hide from the world. Alas, I do not have such things to put into writing. I do not write long winded passages or poetry for all to see. I only write what I feel at the time and it is usually pretty simple. I have no sexual conquests to boast of. It has always been hard for me to venture into that social arena. I meet people everyday, and I talk, and laugh with many. But I do not evoke "THAT" feeling in others. I have come to learn this and accept things as they are. I cannot forget the dream or what it showed me. There are no hard feelings, no anger, and little remorse. It is what is. As time has passed in my alone period I have come to terms with it. I would like to have thought that Amelia or Katheryn were something special, but I know better than that. They were fun, and really sweet. Especially Amelia. Her hair was like blue black raven feathers. Her smile was warm and tender. She smelled of honey and cedar. And she was soft and warm to hold. But she left. As is the way of things for me. Actually, there was remorse there. I thought then that maybe.....but I was shown once again, that it was a false hope. So now I study kung fu and work on things of my own. This site needs attention, and I have several books that I should be reading. If you read this or something else I write I hope you comment. If not. Well, Blessings of Ra upon you anyway.

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

I voted today

Wasnt anything big or even memorable. Just turn the crank and hit yes when what you wanted is highlighted. I was disappointed though about one thing. The area where I live. they only carry certain ballots. You either have to vote All Republican, all Democrat or take the long way and select indiviuals. there was nothing for the liberal party on the balllot and nothing for the green party. What was also strange was that I saw posters and banners for people that were not on the ballot. Ofcourse Ann Witt had her supporters there. Scott Hochberg didnt have a single soul on site. Not one person to pass out the last minute flyers, and he only had one sign on the lawn. It was at the end of the street way behind a bunch of Al Green and Ann Witt banners. So, once again Scott Hochberg, or atleast his commitee proves, HE IS NOT someone to vote for . What was really strange about today was the number of people who could not speak english voting. It was kinda weird. Watching people have to get translators just to find out thier name. And no, translators were NOT readily available. They had to be located. But all-in-all I must say it was good to see people standing for thier beliefs, even if they didnt understand what they were told. :)